I'm Dreaming of A White Christmas

It

hasn't

felt much like

Christmas yet. And I

Can't figure out why. I was

thinking that maybe it is because

I don't have a hand to hold, or because

the entire family is not together once again this

year. Then again, maybe it is because I have not done

anything real big for anyone or done anything for charity.I

thought that maybe it was because I didn't decorate the tree with

my family or because I did not get to help put the lights on this year either.

Maybe it was because I didn't get the chance to help mom decorate the house

or go Christmas shopping with her. Maybe it's because there is not any snow or because

I have grown too old to feel the magic. I was wondering if it is because I have lost Christ, but

I know I have not lost him. Maybe it is because I have not read any Christmas stories or listened to

much Christmas music. Maybe it's because there are both good and bad memories on Christmas and

they have all meshed together into one gigantic blob of grey. Or maybe because I need more hot cocoa.

But then I realized that

Christmas is what you

feel or do. It's what you

give. So maybe if I just

keep giving, I'll feel it.

Just maybe...............

P.S. If you don't believe, you don't recieve...