Thursday, August 25, 2011

Puzzel Pieces

It was my second day of school today. What? School started already? Yes, it did. News flash. I swear it hasn't hit me yet that I'm in college. I already feel like I'm kind of getting the hang of things. I finally know where all the buildings are, I've been to some social gatherings, I've gotten to know my roommates, we finished our football routine for Badgerettes, and I've already written THREE PAPERS!!! They were easy though, so it wasn't that big of a deal.
I was so tired today that my friend asked me if I was high because I looked drugged. But I informed her I didn't do drugs and that I was just lacking on the sleep factor (thanks to Badgerettes and six in the morning and my rigorous dance schedule that I absolutely love). Although I feel absolutely exhausted and I haven't even gone a full week, I feel so happy. I feel like this is where I am supposed to be. Everything just matches up and works out. I feel like since I have been doing so hard to do what's write that God is blessing me by helping me figure things out. There are trials, don't get me wrong. Life isn't all fun and games and easiness all the time, but I just feel like I have the positivity and the energy to get through things. Finally...
I've also learned that the mistakes you make in high school or in any point of your life follow you everywhere you go. Someone I knew quite well my sophomore year in HS showed up at my appt. this week. I was shocked and he was completely shocked and it was a little awkward, but we are learning to adjust to new environments, even if it means that we will both be here...
I start my Aeriel class tomorrow! I'm so excited! It is going to be really hard work and it is going to kick my trash and get me in shape, but I am so stoked! I have finally figured out what I think I want to be....a Dance Therapist. I want to give therapy to people who have a hard time talking about their problems. I want them to figure themselves out in the way I have been able to figure myself out and sort out my problems...through dance.
Well, I'm off to bed. I'm sick of not getting enough sleep. Hope I can get up in the morning. Thank goodness for weekends! Hallelujah!
This is a picture of Aeriel Dance. There are two pieces of fabric that hang from the ceiling down to the floor. You start at the bottom of the floor and work your way up the ribbon and dance in the ribbon. SWEET, HUH?!?!?!?! I'm so excited I can't even tell you. It will be a challenge, but I so can't wait.

Sunday, August 21, 2011

The Fast Pace Days of a College Girl

It is my first Sunday away from home. They sky outside my window is blue with big white puffy clouds in the sky which remindes me of my dad because they are his favorite. I went to my first college dance last night and it was super duper fun! Institute dances aren't as bad as I thought they were going to be.
I must say, being in this appartment away from home makes me miss my family. I can't just take off my make up and wear sweats and go outside to read a book or work on my computer. I don't have a back yard. I have a park outside my front door. But it is outside of a lot of other people's front door's too, so...
I took a picture of my first meal made by yours truely but I accidentally deleted it after I had already gobbled it down. So, that plan failed. But I still have pictures of my room! I'm not quite done figuring out where things go, but I hope to be soon. Like, today.
Lots of things to do. Good thing it's Sunday. I start drill team tomorrow bright and early at 6am! Oh boy! Here comes college! It's hot on my heels already.
P.S. The water here tastes SO GOOD! :D

Not too shabby. :)

Saturday, August 20, 2011

Cowboy Up, Little Darlin

It was weird waking up this morning and being completely alone in my apartment. No one was here to have breakfast with. No one was here to say "good morning!" No one was here to wake me up for scripture and prayer. No one was here to come in and open my curtains to let the light in and say, "wake up, sleepy head!" I guess this is how things are when you move out. I thought I had prepared myself and gotten through a lot of my homesickness even before I left yesterday. But, nope. My mom and I chatted this morning and I read Chrystal's updates on cooper and the cards my family gave me and here the tears are! haha.
My mom said my dad woke up this morning and came up to her and said, "Where's Cassady?" haha. I guess the shock of his baby girl being gone is going to take a while to sink in completely. Even when I woke up I had to take a look around to remember where I was.
I love it here. My own space, my own way of doing things. But there is nothing that can replace the family that has stayed so close to you through the years.
This is certainly going to take some getting used to. I can't wait to get all settled in and get to know people. That will be awesome. I've already made some new acquaintances.
Time has gone by so freaking fast. I don't know where it's all gone. Just yesterday my sisters and I were burying each other in the sand box while my brothers played b-ball on the court in our backyard. I'm vowing today to never take another day for granted. Every moment counts. Every second is all mine. Time isn't a joke, it is completely serious.
Now, in the words of Elder Hafen, it is time to cowboy up and ride this saddle we call life. :)

Monday, August 8, 2011

Vague But True

Today was one of those days. The roller coaster. Up, down, up, down. My sister in law and her kids flew in today. I'm so happy to see them. I saw them like a month and a half ago but still, when you're the youngest and all your family lives everywhere but where you are, it's nice to have them around every now and again.
But anyway...It was only just a few minutes ago that I was searching through my CD case to find something good when I came across something very special. Something that I honestly don't know if I can give up.
I saw a sign today. A sign of life. I didn't want to believe it because I did not want it to be true. There are so many things that are so easy to give up, and then every now and again you come across this one thing that just pulls at one of your heart strings. It tugs and tugs and tugs at you until you eventually have to put a wall between yourself and it so the tugging will stop. But even though I put that wall up, the tugging is still there. Dull but alive.
I have to take benadrill for my eye...maybe it will get rid of the tugging.
At least for one night.

Sunday, August 7, 2011


I woke up this morning feeling a little drowsy after going to the Tim Mcgraw concert last night and I noticed that my right eye felt a little funny. So I go and look in the mirror and my eye is almost swollen shut. Who knows why? I look like I have some disease. I'm so skipping out on the singles ward today...
My niece is getting blessed today. I'm so excited. It's going to be quite a day...
I've never done 100 truths before and I've had blog-block all summer. I've had so many things to say and no words to say them with. So, here is my attempt.
1. Last beverage: Water
2. Last phone call:  Abram Phelon
3. Last text message: Abram Phelon
4. Last song you listened to:  Indian Outlaw by Tim Mcgraw (at his concert :D)
5. Last time you cried: An hour ago.
6. Dated someone twice: No.
7. Been cheated on: Yup.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: Yes
9. Lost someone special: Yes
10. Been depressed: Yes
12.  Red
13.  Aqua
14. Golden Yellow
15. Made a new friend?: Yes
17. Laughed until you cried? Yes
18. Met someone who changed you? yes
19. Found out who your true friends were? Yes
20. Found out someone was talking about you? No. But if they were who cares.
21. Kissed anyone on your FB friends’ list? Nope.
22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life?  most of them…but I didn’t feel like counting :-)
23. A TV show you wish was NOT canceled? Lizzie McGuire or That's So Raven
24. Do you have any pets? Nope.
25. M&M’s with or with OUT peanuts? Minnie and without
26. What did you do for your last birthday? went to school, went out with Eric Alsop, went to PF Changs with my closest lady friends.
27. What time did you wake up today?  9:00am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night?:  Just got home from the concert.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: College.
30. Last time you saw your Mother?: About an hour ago.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life?  I don't know. Probably the fact that I had a boyfriend in HS. but nothing else.
32. What are you listening to right now?  Nothing. Unless you call the breeze through the trees music.
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? Nope. Don't think so.
34. What’s getting on your nerves right now?  My swollen face and all these stupid mosquito bites.
35. Most visited webpage? my email....does that count?
36. PC or Mac? Mac!
37. Nicknames: Cassa, Cass, Twink, Twinkletoes, Tweed, Charlie Anna, Doll, George, Max.
38. Relationship Status: Single.
39. Zodiac Sign: Taurus
40. Lady or Gent?: Lady
41. Elementary?: Forbes Elementary
42. Middle School?: American Fork JH
43. High School?: American Fork HS
44. Hair Color?: some say it's blond, some say it's strawberry blond, some say it's red. Who really knows?
45. Long or short?: In the middle.
46. Height? :5’4
48. What do you like about yourself? I don't really know...?
49. Piercings?: One in each ear.
50. Tattoos? No
51. Righty or lefty? Righty
52. First surgery?: Appendix.
53. First Piercing?: Ears
54. First best friend?: Outside of my family? Ummm. Madi Minor.
55. First sport you joined? Softball in fourth grade
56. Favorite place of residence? I loved living in Boston. LOVED IT.
57. How many people have you kissed? One.
58. When do you feel the best about yourself? Right after I work out and shower and lay in the sun when I'm not wearing any make up.
59. Eating: just did
60. Drinking: Nope.
61. *Poke*: huh?
62. *Poke*:  I don’t get this one…
63. Waiting for?: My face to stop being a balloon...
64. Want kids? If I adopt, yes. But lets be realistic, I'll probably have one or two....ouch...
65. Get Married? Marriage and I aren't exactly simpatico...
66. Career? Can't decide. I want to be a dance teacher/ athletic trainer, and make-up artist, and a photographer...
67. Lips or eyes?: eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: Hugs.
69. Shorter or taller: Taller
70. Older or Younger: Depends.
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Yes.
73. Sensitive or loud:  In between
75. Trouble-maker or hesitant: ummm......I've been known to be both.
78. Lost glasses/contacts?: No.
80. Broken someone’s heart?: Yes....unfortunately.
81. Had your own heart broken?: Yes
83. Turned someone down?: Yes
84. Cried when someone died?: Yes
86. Yourself?: I try to.
87. Miracles?: Yes
88. Love at first sight?: No
89. Heaven?: mmhm.
90. Santa Claus?:  I wish I still did. Awe, why not, sure I do.
91. Kiss on the first date?: Before it...hehe.
92. Angels?: Definitely
93. Had more than one bf/gf at the same time?: No.
94. Is there one person you want to be with right now?  Yes and then again, no. and yes. but no.
95. Did you sing today? No…
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go, and why? hmmmm. I dunno. I don't want to relive my life. I'm fine with the way I've turned out.
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? July 20 or September 17, 2010.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? Yes. If love exists.
100. Posting this as 100 truths? Nope. Because that's not all that I did on my blog today...finally...