Wednesday, February 8, 2012


I have found that it is incredibly hard not to compare yourself to others. Sometimes I don't feel as funny, beautiful, smart, clever, witty, charming, experienced, talented, cultured, or as spiritual as other people. It is surprisingly difficult to ignore what is in your head or what people say to you - especially when it's negative. Someone once told me to let things roll off my shoulders. But I think personal doubts and all that stupid stuff really brings a person down. It's hard to roll all that off your shoulders because it isn't on your shoulders, it's in your head.
In yoga we talk about opening your heart and releasing all your cares into the universe, sucking in all the positivity and good from the world. I have been fully supportive of this exercise from the get-go. Why? Because I WANT that. I WANT positivity and love and light in my mind, in my heart, and in my life. THANK GOODNESS for yoga and all the wonderfully fantastic things it does in my life. Seriously, I'd do it every day if I had the time. It's the thought that counts, right?
I have noticed that it is so easy for people (okay, maybe just me) to have charity on everyone else because it is something I deeply love and understand. BUT it is incredibly hard to have charity on MYSELF. Who knew, right?
At Drill Team camp this past summer we went to St. George and learned from this INSANE lady who choreographed for Michael Jackson. I kid you not when I say she is insane. I mean that almost quite literally....ANYWHO....she put us in a circle and we all had to say something that we all do really well in dance. It could be performance, a jump, pointing your toes, WHATEVER. So, we go around the circle and it eventually hits me and I stand there, dumbfounded, amazed that I could not think of ONE thing. NOT ONE! SERIOUSLY! I mean, it's not that no one has ever told me that they think this or that I just have not taken the time to admire the things about myself that are worth while. I spent so much time on what was negative and pushing and pushing myself to be a perfect dancer that I forgot to see what was good and beautiful. So, naturally, I said "I dunno" and she pointed at me and yelled "fail!" which made me feel worse but oh-well. That's beside the point.
THE POINT IS: that we spend too much time focusing on the things that we don't have in ourselves or the things we want or the things that we are not good at. We need to wake up and let in a little sunshine! There ARE good things! TONS of good things. They are just hiding under all those negative thoughts.
SO dust off all those negative thoughts and realize that you are great. You have things that make you you, amazing things, good things, positive things. The bad things are not what makes you who you are.
It is the good things and the positive ways you fix the bad things that make you who you are meant to be. I PROMISE!

Believe that NOTHING is too good to be true.
Let others lead small lives, but not you.Let others argue over small things, but not you. Let others cry over small hurts, but not you. Let others cry over small things, but not you. Let others leave their future in someone else's hands, but not you. ~Jim Rohn

I am me, and that's all I have to give. And I'm okay with that.

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