Today, I've decided to major in dance. Some of those who may have read this or heard me talking before have probably known this before me. I couldn't decide between dance or photography. I decided that I was going to double major. Double majoring while being on the drill team, keeping my scholarship, and keeping a 'b' average to remain on the team, take institute, etc, etc, would have killed me.
I think I am superwoman or whatever sometimes and that I can do anything and nothing can take me down or ruin my dreams. But, of course, I am a human, and there are things I may not be able to do. I know this for a fact. Dance and photography mixed up in schedules for registering for classes. They were all offered at the same time. I love photography, but dance has always been my 'thing.' Photo didn't pop up until my sophomore year.
I was teaching at auditions today for Dance Co. at my high school. It dawned on me how much I really enjoy teaching dance. I hate (almost more than anything) getting up in front of people. But, that's funny because I love speaking in public and I love teaching dance. I'm a performer. I don't know how it works, but who cares, it's who I am.
I was standing by the fridge talking to my mom and (on the sides of religion), I had been pacing back and forth last night after looking at my schedule for next year. (I think I'm going to die, by the way.) I couldn't figure out what I needed to do.....what I wanted to do. Photo or dance, dance or photo, photo or dance...
So, after auditions today, I walked in the house, leaned on the fridge, and started talking to my mom about it and how much fun I had helping people and showing them how to do things. I said, "I really enjoy teaching dance, mom." and then I paused, smiled at her and said, "And I think I just figured it out."
I am sad that I am not pursuing photo at this point in my life. But I think I can MAKE TIME for it to be at LEAST a hobby or something like that.
I guess sometimes (like I said before) the obvious isn't always completely obvious when it comes to making choices. At least that's how it is for me. Thank goodness for common sense.