It just made me wonder. The timing of things always seems so . . . well, the way God wants it to be. The emails I saw could have saved me a lot of greif, so why didn't I see them before when they could have helped me more?
Here's what I figure: God knew I could have the easy way out. But, he decided to test me to see if I'd take the easy way out. I was stupid enough not to take the easy way out first and things just got more complicated. He decided that since I went with the more complex route, he'd throw in a few more things randomly and see how I handled them, because he knows I can. And that's just what I have to keep telling myself.
I was at dance with my PT (personal Trainer) tonight, and I was already tired and my body has been so worne out and in pain from all the working out I've been doing. Well, she had me do a releve' combonation that went on for I don't know how long. But it hurt like crazy. I almost started to cry (p.s. it was the second day in a few years I wasn't wearing a knee brace so my knee wasn't very happy with me either.) but then I realized that yeah, the combonation was arduous, it took a lot of effort and really tested my endurance and strength, but because I knew it was something that would benefit me (if I could take the good things out of it), then I could do it, challenge or no challenge. So, I didn't cry, I stared the wall down and squoze my muscles with all my might. I'm insanely sore already and it hasn't even been 2 hours, but I'm already noticing the effects.
I guess we just need to look at the bigger picture sometimes and realize that what isn't easy is totally worth it in some way or another.
Maybe Someday . . .